So,  I’m struggling.  I had certain expectations about a couple of professional opportunities that turned up and my hopes were dashed.  Like I just knew things were going to work out like I wanted them and, of course, that didn’t happen.  So now I sit here licking my wounds, anxious about how to proceed; feeling insecure about my own talents and abilities.  This has been tremendously stressful and frankly, a blow to my self-esteem.

Intellectually, I know it is because I am not living in the present moment.  I am lamenting the past and worrying about the future. But emotionally, I just want to lie in bed with the covers over my head!

So for my meditation this morning, I used a practice Thich Nhat Hanh mentioned in his book, Living Buddha, Living Christ. It is one of the mindfulness meditations he learned as a novice monk to focus the mind on the beauty of the present moment.

Breathe in – calming

Breathe out – smiling

Breathe in – present moment

Breathe out – wonderful moment

It really helped me clear my mind of negative thoughts and focus  on listening to the wisdom of the universe.

I am trusting that things will work out for my highest good.  (Hey, that’s one of my favorite affirmations!)

be free.





2 thoughts on “Strugglin…

  1. I absolutely do the same thing when I am struggling. I get in my bed, pull the covers up to my eyeballs and sleep until I feel better. I drink tea and eat in bed, read romance novels and rub my cat’s head. Eventually, I begin to remember all the times my disappointments turned into unforeseen blessings that took me places I never imagined I’d go. These real experiences help restore my faith and confidence that my life is where it should be. I get up and get going again. Nothing happens before it’s time. Just because you WANT it doesn’t mean you NEED it. If you didn’t get it, it wasn’t for you. Better is on the way!😍😍

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