So, I’m struggling. I had certain expectations about a couple of professional opportunities that turned up and my hopes were dashed. Like I just knew things were going to work out like I wanted them and, of course, that didn’t happen. So now I sit here licking my wounds, anxious about how to proceed; feeling insecure about my own talents and abilities. This has been tremendously stressful and frankly, a blow to my self-esteem.
Intellectually, I know it is because I am not living in the present moment. I am lamenting the past and worrying about the future. But emotionally, I just want to lie in bed with the covers over my head!
So for my meditation this morning, I used a practice Thich Nhat Hanh mentioned in his book, Living Buddha, Living Christ. It is one of the mindfulness meditations he learned as a novice monk to focus the mind on the beauty of the present moment.
Breathe in – calming
Breathe out – smiling
Breathe in – present moment
Breathe out – wonderful moment
It really helped me clear my mind of negative thoughts and focus on listening to the wisdom of the universe.
I am trusting that things will work out for my highest good. (Hey, that’s one of my favorite affirmations!)